Thursday, 29 October 2009

Month One in the Kingdom

It’s hard to believe that I’ve been in Scotland a month already, just moments ago I was leaving London on a fast train whilst my possessions simultaneously sped up the motorway somewhere beyond Manchester. Spectacular dedication on the part of the assembled removal crew meant they beat Mum and me by two hours. The lorry was unloaded and beers in the fridge by the time we got there. How’s that for a stress-free move? It was fantastic having Mum and Dad there, I don’t know how I’d have managed the move without them (and Louis and Ed – haven’t forgotten you guys!). Three short days later, I was waving my parents off, absorbing the fact that I had made my dream move and couldn’t help but wonder what the future holds.

The first couple of weeks were hard going; endless hours of beholding (with shame and desperation) the sheer volume of my worldly possessions, taking things out of boxes…putting them back, moving piles from one end of the room…then back again as I tried valiantly to make a quantity of belongings more suited to a 3-bed house fit into a studio flat. My efforts have been rewarded, I’ve pulled off an incredible feat of logistics and not only found a place for everything I've unpacked, but also housed the myriad of boxes still requiring attention, without the place looking like the self-storage unit of a serial hoarder.

Two weeks in and my flat felt like home, time to relax and start enjoying my time in Scotland. I’d already had my first outing into Kirkcaldy for the spectacle of Big Man Walking 2009. Words don’t do it justice, take a look at the photos on the website, I guarantee you’ll be hoping the Big Man visits your town next year. The following weekend was even more action packed and really made me realise how different living in Scotland will be from the life I knew in London. On the Friday, a trip to Edinburgh with Craig, what a great city! Lunch was a superb egg & bacon muffin in M&S cafĂ©, a highly recommended dose of food heaven (get there before 12pm, not 12.10pm as we did, and you get a free tea/coffee with your muffin, woo!). Got rather wet walking home from the station, but that didn't dampen our spirits any.

On Saturday it was a visit with Craig to a fantastic farm shop and cafe called Loch Levens Larder for a delicious lunch of baked potato and hot chocolate (is this beginning to sound like a tour of Scottish lunch venues?) before walking down to Loch Leven. It's a picturesque spot that most people can access and enjoy, thanks to a new gravel path laid all along and the availability of electric scooters from the Larder FREE of charge (what lovely people, they do great desserts too!). The memorable moment of the day happened as we were walking along listening to the sound of our feet on the gravel and the pink-footed geese on the loch; all of a sudden we became aware of a wall of noise behind us. We turned to see thousands of geese flying to the loch, such an amazing sight; the whole sky was full of birds. They flew right over our heads and landed in the loch. What a spectacular outing. This is my favourite picture, click on it to visit my Flikr page where you can also see photos of the Lomond Hills which provided a stunning backdrop.



On Sunday, a walk through Ravenscraig Park and beyond brought unexpected delights and unfortunate tumbles on the rocks. Whilst it was chilly walking through the park, it was sheltered and sunny down on the beach, providing an opportunity to spend time sitting watching the waves, guessing at the identity of various birds passing by. A little further along the beach, we realized that blobs in the distance, assumed to be rocks were moving. As we got closer, it became obvious that the 'rocks' were seals enjoying the afternoon sun. In my excitement, I slipped on the rocks and landed in a puddle...splat! I was a bit sore, but my immediate concern was for my camera which hit the rocks hard as I went down (the chilling sound still haunts me). I looked with dread at my camera to assess the damage...beneath the seaweed there were just a few scratches on the zoom casing!!! *huge sigh of relief*. I was soaked and bruised, but continued watching the seals in awe for a while and got some great photos. On the upside, it was a perfect excuse to spend the rest of the day curled up on the couch in my fleecy pjs. The ‘best’ bit about my mishap was falling over with such a clatter 30 seconds after whispering “we have to be really quiet so we don't disturb the seals”. Ach well, it was worth the pain, the memory will remain for a long time. Follow the link on the photo below to see more seal pics.


I'm feeling really settled up here now. I get immense pleasure from the ever changing landscape each time I step outside my door; I don’t think I’ll ever tire of seeing the sea from the top of my road. The surrounding woodlands are a blaze of Autumn, it’s truly a beautiful time of year to be making my new home in Scotland.

Thursday, 8 October 2009

Inspiration to Achieve

Sometimes I wonder what I would achieve if I lived in a little bubble on my own (maybe with just one other person for company, to stop me going mad). I know myself well enough to suspect it would not be a very productive life; thank goodness for having so many people on this planet who inspire me to do something more with my life.

Years ago, I gave up on New Year’s resolutions. I realised that saying I might try to achieve something in the coming year did not equal getting things done. The familiar sense of failure come February, March, April (you get the idea) as I admitted to my miserable self that yet again I was no closer to losing weight, being happy, being tidy, doing more with my life (the list goes on, I won’t bore you) than I was on 31st December. I have been a fair bit happier since I stopped making yearly resolutions to fail at, so at least one of my goals is a step nearer. I do however still feel the need to have something to aim towards, and I’m in a lucky position to have the time available right now to ponder what it is I want from life. A recent flurry of energy and enthusiasm from my twin, coupled with a chance visit to the Day Zero page of a fascinating Fife blogger (their to-do-list spookily resembled my own mental list) got me thinking in earnest about where my energy should be directed in the coming months/years/decades for maximised happiness and zen-like fulfilment. It seems unfair to credit just two people with this call to action, because I know so many other people who have played their part also. Thank you to each and every one of you (check out the links/blogs I follow, a plethora of creative people for you to be inspired by as I have been).

2009 and Beyond: The Path to Contentment

  1. Lose 14lbs
  2. Find a spiritual path
  3. Find a job I love
  4. Write for at least 30mins every day
  5. Have a piece of writing published
  6. Attend a photography course
  7. Attend a creative workshop
  8. Learn to play (some) piano
  9. See/photograph a red squirrels & seals
  10. Learn chess
  11. Walk regularly
  12. Learn Spanish
  13. Write a novel
  14. Develop and maintain healthy eating habits
  15. Walk Fife Coastal Path
  16. Go camping at least twice a year
  17. Stop shopping at supermarkets
  18. Learn to sing
  19. Learn to knit
  20. Update blog weekly
  21. Increase use of fresh/organic foods
  22. Recycle, Reduce, Reuse
  23. Wear my glasses when reading
  24. Volunteer with a conservation group
  25. Go horse riding
  26. Travel through Grampians/Highlands on a train
  27. Spend a week exploring Isle of Lewis & Harris
  28. Teach myself to play my guitar
  29. Organise and tag my photos
  30. Do a painting
  31. Develop a yoga habit
  32. Develop a meditation habit
  33. Meet creative people (and non-creative, they are nice too)
  34. Learn metalworking
  35. Identify 25 things I like about myself
  36. Buy a sketch pad and doodle/draw until it is filled
  37. Catch the boat from Anstruther to the Isle of May
  38. Use my slow cooker
  39. Join/start a book/doodle group
  40. Do something creative every day
  41. Read the books on my reading list (20 as of 08/10/09)
  42. Visit Hawaii
  43. Visit California
  44. Take a rubbish bag on every trip to the beach
  45. File my tax returns before it is January
  46. Practice massage regularly
  47. Get a library card
  48. Learn to identify trees and birds
  49. Own a craft/book shop
  50. Turn my photos into postcards/cards for sale

There you go, a list of my 50 top priorities for the foreseeable future. Doing all these things won’t fall into place over night, so I invite you to check in regularly to ask me how things are going. One thing I’m certain of, I am going to succeed in achieving the items on this list like no other list that has gone before. It’s going to be a fun journey.

Thursday, 1 October 2009

A Spiritual Journey

I AM...
I am lovely,
I am a guide,
I am an open door,
I am a caster of spells,
I am one, complete as two,
I am a Rescuer of Lost Souls,
I am an adventurer into others' minds,
I am a solver of problems,
I am an oasis of calm,
I am a teller of truths,
I am a creative spirit,
I am a shining star,
I am amazing,
I am reborn.

©2009 Caren Carter

This poem marks the beginning of an overdue spiritual journey, and a turning point in the opinions I hold about myself. A month prior to writing ‘I Am’, I wrote ‘Self Doubt’, filled with negatives and self-loathing. Writing them down was much needed therapy and released me from feelings of failure and inadequacy that haunted me, paving the way for the uplifting and self-affirming ‘I Am’. At this point, I must credit my twin, Helen for handing me 'Poem Crazy' (Susan Goldsmith Wooldridge) to read when I visited her earlier this year, because this poem was written as part of an exercise from this inspirational book. I smile and think ‘WOW’ each time I read this poem, it’s a useful reminder of who I am and the potential I have within me.

Writing ‘I Am’ was like opening a floodgate in my mind, everything in life was suddenly possible, nothing beyond my grasp. A new life stretches ahead, which was previously unimaginable. It seems as if my destiny has become clearer at last (I sense that something big awaits). For a while I pretended that ‘I am reborn’ meant something different and unrelated to God but by the time I had referenced ‘The Universe’ in various conversations for the umpteenth time, I gave in and admitted to myself that I had indeed been reborn spiritually. After many (many) years of denying my spiritual needs, I’ve opened my heart and mind to God’s existence. The inner guidance I experienced and my unwavering belief that moving to Scotland is the right thing to do, have played a large part in this acceptance. I have not lost my mind (regardless of what some may think, judging by the bewildered expressions), and yet I’ve made a series of monumental decisions about my future based on a ‘feeling’ that my future lies in Scotland.

Some 6 months ago, I place a request with the universe that I would find a spiritual path, and that I would find someone to travel that path with. Truth be told, I didn’t believe that my desires would be answered, but I made them known regardless. It seemed like the right thing to do at the time, despite feeling a little foolish. I have no idea how long these things typically take, but I would say my request was answered within a month of putting it out there. That’s pretty impressive service, by anyone’s standards! I feel blessed and humbled to have found a companion to enjoy the beauty of this world with, who understands what I’m looking for and wants nothing more than to help me find the answers I seek.

There is a great deal of self-discovery to do yet, before my spirituality falls into place but I am relieved to have the hand of a kindred spirit in mine, as I make the journey. Everything seems a little less daunting when someone is walking by your side, I feel very lucky indeed.